cause maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me

ever had that feeling when your mind is working twice as hard as the rest of your body? it's been one of those nights. my mind is racing, but about nothing at all really. i feel like when i'm reading something, my mind is screaming it repeatedly. it is one of those things when these are the times i think i'm insane...voices screaming in my head? what the hell am i talking about? my mind is excited about something, yet the rest of me is the same, not reacting at all. i've had the feeling before where my body seems to be doing things faster than my mind can comprehend...yea, this is opposite of that. i don't get it; i don't know what it means. maybe it means nothing. maybe it means everything...i can't even begin to know.
today is thursday. thursday is good. tomorrow is friday. the day after that is saturday. brian gets back on saturday. that is very good. it has been a long time since i've seen him. maybe that's what this is all about. maybe not. another thing i don't know. it will be good to spend time with him again. i hope things don't get weird like most things have gotten since break. it seems that too long away from people causes changes, in my mind, unwanted changes. i'm not a big fan of change. unwanted change is definitely bad, but even neutral changes make me somewhat uncomfortable and challenge me. eek. scary thoughts. enough of that.
three classes tomorrow and then the weekend. i'm glad i don't have chem tomorrow, that should make the day go a little bit faster even though that seems to be my most interesting class on MWF. it feels like this has been a full week even though it really hasn't and we haven't even been doing things in class yet. scary. i'm looking forward to actually starting to do something in class. perhaps that will keep me from these weird unproductive nights where i start thinking and doubting.
writing my random thoughts here (even though no one reads them) has helped calm my mind down a bit. perhaps i will take a break from latin to ensure that i don't start freaking out again. yes, so until tomorrow...