there's trouble in here

friday...finally. i'm still a little edgy after having been woken up at 2am because someone decided to pull the fire alarm. having to stand outside in big huddles of people trying to stay relatively warm was just excellent. oh well, at least something happened last night.
for the past few days, i have been wavering between depression and apathy. yesterday was one of the more depressing days that began sometime during work. i fear i'm inflicting my dreary moods upon the few people i spend time with and have determined to attempt to try and minimize my contact with them for that reason. in the long run, it will probably make my outlook worse, but i don't like sharing unhappiness so there you go.
i'm afraid that something i've said or done has pushed you away from me...or maybe i'm just imagining things. either way, it remains foremost in my thoughts. its hard for me to think about this because now all the stupid things i've done are coming back to me.
i am ready for the weekend. for the solitude that will come with all the homework i have to do. hopefully, i don't become so apathetic that i don't get anything done. in that way, depression would be better for this weekend...i'd be depressed, but at least i might get something done. i am still looking forward to the movie nonetheless.