almost just another day.

i didn't think it was possible for today to have been the way it was. i just didn't expect it.
my politics exam seemed fairly straightforward, and i think i will do alright on it. i got my politics paper back. that was good. i did well on it, so i have something to counteract the crappy grades in other things. chem was fine until we got our tests back, then it was horrible. i knew i hadn't done well, but i did feel pretty well prepared for it, or so i thought. blegh. world lit was annoying because he decided that we were basically unable to write our papers without him spending the whole class pretty much telling us what he wants us to out in the final draft of our papers. that kind of shit pisses me off. that's not teaching, that's like giving step by step instructions on how he wants it done. no, that's exactly what it is. and then he penalizes students for "asserting something other than what he said in class." what the hell is the point if i can only regurgitate your shit back to you? thanks for letting me think, and encouraging me to think. some teachers piss me off. the worst part about it is that i wish i could get back into his latin class because dr. thomas just isn't working for me. i'm toying with the idea of withdrawing and taking it with bucher (or another teacher) next spring. the problems with that are 1. i would only have 14 credit hours this semester...that doesn't seem right to me, but more like something someone else would do; 2. it might screw up my four year plan a little bit, depending on what i decided to stick with. i'm still planning on everything i've got down so far, and if i live here both next summer and the summer after junior year, it may not be a huge problem; and 3. would i forget everything i've "learned" up to this point if i did that and then have to start over a year from now? the positives would be 1. i could get out of dr. thomas' class, which i feel like i will inevitably fail, and could possibly get a better teacher next year; and 2. i could focus on my other classes, especially chemistry, which as shown today, is absolutely necessary. i don't know. i feel like withdrawing now might be pointless...but if i end up failing anyway, staying in the class is even more pointless. argh. i have no idea! i'll talk it over with dr. weber when i meet with her on thursday. until then, i can't really worry about it and will have to keep trying, especially on the quiz on wednesday.
in retrospect, two good things have happened today. brian and my politics paper. i'm looking forward to tonight, but i must remember that my expectations have a tendency to get the better of me.
now, i'm off to do chem lab with kate, then practice...