it is all very interesting to me

a weekend that seemed long while i was in the midst of it, but went by far too quickly now that it has passed already. friday night was enjoyable. i took the night off of homework entirely (may have been a mistake, but i wouldn't change it at all). brian and i took panera back to davis and ate while watching the middle bit of twister. then we started i heart hucakbees (with some cheesecake in the middle...wow, so good), which is a movie i had been looking forward to seeing since i first saw the poster on brian's wall. it was definitely enjoyable. i found myself laughing a lot and liked the whole thing.
saturday morning was the erg race against nebraska and the women's division I team. it was indeed a 1000m piece for the cox'ns (definitely a good thing) and mine was the first race of the day. there were four other female cox'ns who raced, although i didn't know it at the time. i placed second (but it wasn't announced that way, so no one knows...oh well, who really cares?), about 3 seconds behind the women's DI cox'n, a girl they call pineapple who is shorter than me, crazy. brian coxed me and was definitely the reason i did as well as i did, and i don't even think i said thanks (i'm a bad person). oh yea, and i improved on my 1k record by almost 12 seconds. our team did well. we had a few people win races and a lot of people placed. after the races were all over, some of the team (maybe 14 people) went out to brunch. that was alright. food was pretty cheap and the company, save one or two, was mediocre. after a shower, i got all my stuff together and went over to brian's to study...too bad that didn't happen. i fell asleep for most of the afternoon, we ate our bagels from panera, and then left to go seen because of winn dixie. we got delayed in gallagher hanging out with steph and kate, but eventually made it to the exact replica (i swear) of the theatre from donnie darko, except in council bluffs. i'm pretty sure we were the only ones in the whole building, and the guy had to start the movie for us. the movie was predictable, but it was cute and i thoroughly enjoyed the few parts with dave matthews in them. he sang a song, butterfly, that i really liked and want, but that apparently does not exist anywhere...suck. after another piece of cheesecake, sleep was greatly appreciated.
sunday was chaotic. got to sleep in a little bit and got a small amout of studying done in the morning before brunch. then i had to rush to meet my family to drive out to lincoln to see joan, andrew, and grace at andrew's fencing tournament. it was running way behind, so i only got to see him fence twice, but he was showing off like a true slaughter-"schrader"-adams child. he did really well placing 3rd in the age division above his (12 year olds) and winning the 10 year old division. it was good seeing them and they are one of the few reasons i'm excited to go home. i got back to campus at 5:29 and had a meeting for relay at 5:30. the meeting was interesting...now i'm captain of the crew relay for life team. i'm stressed about that, but i think it will all work out alright in the end. i didn't get much studying done last night, but i just got out of my world lit midterm, which definitely could have gone worse....so i'm alright. one midterm down, three to go. tomorrow is the chem lab practical. i'm a little worried, but this isn't really something you can study for, which is comforting and disconcerting at the same time.
i now have less than an hour before practice to attempt to get something written up to give people about relay for life. i do have a serious fear that it won't go well and i'll now be the one to blame (rather than steve). responsibility...scary. i'll do my best though, i know that for sure. its for morgan; i have to do better than my best.
i still fear it is all a dream. even if it isn't, i am scared that it will end like a bad dream and i'll be left with the fading taste of it in my mouth preventing me from ever forgetting. that dream last night really scared me. i hope no part of it ever comes true.
if it is all a dream though, please don't wake me up. i need you.