mounting fear and anxiety.

each minute closer i get to the coming week, my anxiety increases exponentially. as happy as i am that this week is almost over, i don't want to deal with all the pressure and stress of next week. monday is my world lit midterm (haven't even looked at the study guide yet). tuesday is my chem lab practical (haven't looked at that yet either). wednesday is my chem exam (which i already know i'm fucked for. i'll be expecting another failing grade...sweet!). thursday is my weights midterm (don't laugh, apparently everyone gets d's and f's on this test). and i'm dreading friday the most because that's the day i leave...at midnight on the dreaded train. at least the week will be over, but for the next week after that, i will be stuck at home without the one thing that continually makes me happy. when i think about that, i start to really worry about summer. its going to be hell. but i don't have time to think about that now...i need to start studying!
wait, no. not yet. i don't have time today...
lunch with kate: 11:15
work: 12-3:30
kfc: 3:45-5
captains meeting with brian: 5:30
dinner
homework
playoff basketball game: 9
homework
sleep
wow, that freaks me out. i'm not going to be able to deal with next week very well...shoot me now before it starts.
oh well, i'll look forward to a bit of happiness this weekend. maybe kate's play on friday night. mike said something about ice cream. the erg race on saturday morning (can't wait to get that over with...once i get my ass kicked by every other cox'n). seeing my family, especially joan, andrew, and grace, on sunday. i'm also excited to see andrew fence. i've only seen him when i took him to practice every week over the summer, but i hope he does well since he's going to have quite a cheering section. i can't wait to see them...wow, yea, i'm excited for that.
and of course, as always, i will be glad to get to spend whatever time i can with brian.