the artifact and living

i was reminded me of the way i was feeling a few days ago and started to freak out a little again, but this song really just calmed me down. the simplicity of it is nice.
relay is tomorrow night. i'm anxious because our team is slacking, for sure. but i realized that none of the external things like our theme, costumes, and campsite decorations matter. what really matters is the cause we are working for, and i hope people take it seriously but have fun at the same time. it should be a good time.
practice today went well. aside from being a little cold and some time spent trying to get rhythm back into the boat, it was amazing being back on the water in an eight again. it was a feeling i haven't felt since october and i am grateful to have it back again.
tomorrow should be alright. i don't have anything to do tonight, so i'll be able to watch the game and spend some time hanging out. three classes tomorrow, practice, then relay stuff. not sure about saturday or sunday, but the only thing going on next week is my politics exam on wednesday.
hopefully we can have some productive and meaningful conversations and we can figure things out...