how did it end up like this?

a lot of things going on this month, as i predicted. incredible amounts of stress, frustration, and sometimes apathy have come over me in the past few days. the regatta was less than optimal for the novice eight, but went well for the four and the mens novice eight, as far as boats i coxed went. the mens varsity eight did better than anyone expected, winning their heat, going to finals, and placing third in the closest race of the regatta. i'm happy for them. but at the same time, i'm jealous. our eight has had the most practice time together and it just didn't click on sunday. i don't know what it was. we have a bit of tension between all of us, but now we have to decide what we're going to do about it. mary rose and i need to get together before st. louis so we can figure out what to say to everyone. it was good to see my family, but i feel bad because i wasn't able to spend a huge amount of time with them. nevertheless, i think they enjoyed finally seeing what we do and i'm glad they got to meet brian and talk to him a little bit.
school things all seem to be getting pushed back and i am starting to realize that they are all going to pile up in the same week and then i'll be in serious trouble. despite that realization, i can't seem to get myself to do much about it. perhaps i'll be able to get some things done on the drive to st. louis. it will definitely help that we won't have to spend time setting up and taking down everything for this regatta...the downside to a home regatta. the week after next is really going to be difficult with three papers due three days back to back. i got lucky that its the one weekend this month that we don't have a regatta.
well, now its time for practice. i definitely have more things to say though...
"it started with a kiss, how did it end up like this?"