it's a winding road

...i've been walking for a long time and i still don't know where it goes
and it's a long way home, i've been searching for a long time
still have hope i'm gonna find my way home

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- lots of sleep
- a visit with a good friend
- planning with old friends
- preparations
- some 'relaxing'

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looking forward to the next few days. [knock on wood]

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being home alone reminds me of how lonely i really am, inside as well as on the surface.
not being at work reminds me of that as well.
how sad.

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i'll ignore it for now.
thoughts keep creeping up inside my mind.
i'll never get rid of them completely.
why did he have to say it?
why did they have to go along with it?
so many things i can never have.
life is full of regret and loss. not much else.

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"just a poor man's wendy"

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courage.
sacrifice.
determination.
commitment.
toughness.
heart.
talent.
guts.