mixed emotions

i'm done. finally. or not so finally. the year seems to have blown by so quickly leaving me confused, exhausted, and wanting more.
i'm not sure how to deal with the end of one period of time and the beginning of the next period.
these two semesters have brought a lot of things to me that are so numerous i cannot pretend to even have realized them all when they were right in front of me. i've had some experiences i won't forget soon with some people i know i won't forget. i've spent a fair amount of time trying to find where i fit in. i am still uncertain of where that place is. today is one of the many days where i'm convinced there is no such place for me. i am destined to continue the next years of my life (however many may be in store) wandering aimlessly from group to group searching for something i cannot even qualify. maybe happiness exists for some people, but i don't think it does for me. every time i think i find some thing or person that makes me happy, it always ceases to exist as soon as i realize i'm happy.
more to say...later...