much to look forward to

but the pain of distance still hurts deep.

today was exhausting. the second of five consecutive days of work at the golf course. yesterday was bad. today was bad. i only hope it cannot get any worse. i'm still slightly aggravated about this whole situation and i wish ben had answered his phone one of the times i called him.

i close tomorrow which will give me some more time in the morning to get some much-needed rest.

this weekend will be crazy, i think. saturday night is the staff meeting in the bag room which will most likely include a lot of people getting yelled at. i'm planning on driving to estes park to see kate either sunday after i get off work or on monday during the day. my parents, brothers, jill, and whoever else is going are leaving for ouray, co either on saturday or sunday. i'm not sure they even know yet. i may drive down there for one night on monday or tuesday if it works out. the problem is that i do not yet have my schedule starting june 1st. brian and kevin get in on thursday afternoon, so i need to make sure i open thursday and close friday if i am going to work those days at all. my family is supposed to get back on the 4th. my great aunt is going to need a ride to the airport that day as well, and i have a feeling i may be the one required to do it. i really wish my parents would give me some specific details about what is going on...but that is asking for a miracle in my family.

i'm sure i'll survive nonetheless. besides, i have much to look forward to.

and now, a good song...

pride can stand a thousand trials
the strong will never fall
but watching stars without you, my soul cries
heaving heart is full of pain
oh, oh the aching

cause i'm kissing you, oh
i'm kissing you, oh

touch me deep, pure, and true
give to me forever

cause i'm kissing you, oh
i'm kissing you, oh

where are you now?
where are you now?
cause i'm kissing you
i'm kissing you, oh