i'm surrounded by all this pavement

an interesting, yet not incredibly exciting few days have passed.

yesterday i relaxed in the morning, doing my own thing until mark came over at noon. we went over to noodles for lunch, then went down to pinehurst to play the nine hole course. it was pretty hot and i felt like i played pretty crappy. i was putting much worse than i did on monday, but i think i shot close to the same. i feel much better about my driving than i did at the beginning of the season. [i am thinking of going down to the driving range later tonight before they close and paul and i go hang out.] after golf, i headed over to the pool where brian and jill met me. i fell asleep reading and only woke up when brian threw his hat at me before they left. i stayed a little while longer and then came back home. avoiding pretty much everyone because i felt like crap, i made myself some soup and watched a couple episodes of that 70's show. i read a little and then went to bed around 10:30.

i got up this morning at 4:45, got ready for work, and headed back to pinehurst. the morning went by incredibly quickly owing to the ladies 9 hole guest day shotguns at 8 and 12:30, the B team matches at 9, and regular ladies play. working with matt was fine this morning (which it usually isn't), but ben, a relatively new kid, was killing us. he's pretty useless. oh well. after i ate lunch, i went to pick up jack's chew since he was working. when i got back, i was planning on leaving for the day, but got roped into staying until nearly three because of ladies asking for me and matt needing me to try to re-train heather (another useless person on our staff). when i finally got out of there, i came home for 15 minutes, grabbed my pool stuff, and went over to bear creek.

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i cannot believe it is already july! the time seems to have flown by. i have been working so much that i haven't had time for much else. i don't regret it at all. i've made a lot of money this summer already and i have had a lot of fun with a bunch of people. money is not what it is all about at all, but it will be nice to have something to live off of during school. i don't really want to have to ask my grandpa for money so soon in my college career even though he keeps offering it to me.

as much fun as i had at school last year, i am definitely enjoying time away from school work and all the drama that comes with the school scene in general. i am looking forward to a few things, namely hanging out with my good friends, crew, and the thought that perhaps some of my classes will be more exciting these next two semesters. i am not looking forward to leaving my house with its free food and laundry. i will miss toby and jimi (my cars) a lot, but will feel better about myself when i am not contributing to pollution and destroying the planet. the thing i am most apprehensive about leaving is pinehurst. paul is right...i am addicted to pinehurst. but why is that a bad thing? i have such a good time hanging out with everyone there. i've gotten to know all the pro shop guys so much better. lara and i have a blast whenever we spend time together. paul and i hang out so much more than i would have ever imagined two months ago. ben, jeff, jack, and i have a good time "flirting" with each other. i love messing around with john, rich, and all the other guys. i am quite comfortable with my decision to come back home next summer, so long as i'm working in the pro shop. and i'll be looking forward to it too. they're great guys and they're a lot of fun.

i've found that the only places i'm comfortable are when i'm at work, in my room, at the pool reading, driving, and whenever i'm listening to good music. i'm not really ok with any sort of social situation, and i only make myself ok if i'm drinking, which i've eased up a lot on this week. although, my parents are going out of town this weekend, so we'll see what happens...

i have tomorrow off, then i work saturday, sunday, and monday on the busiest weekend of the season for us. saturday is the firecracker tournament. sunday is a normal day. monday is technically a normal day, but we're expecting something like 500 people to be out at the course throughout the day, not to mention the 2000 expected for the whole club, including fireworks. i am really excited to work monday because i'm closing with some good guys in the bagroom, and i know jeff and ben, at least, will be working that night in the shop. the fireworks are going to rock, and we're going to have good seats for the show. it will be a lot of fun and i am looking forward to it, even though it signals the start of the downhill of summer.