strange goodbyes

this last week has felt like much more than just seven days. proof: i thought it had been two weeks already. i went down to pinehurst to get my check that won't be there until next thursday. way to go, meg.

i've been alone a lot. my family has been gone since monday. i worked monday. by myself monday night. didn't do much tuesday. went frisbee golfing with the guys then everyone came over to my house that night. worked wednesday. alone wednesday night. worked thursday. brian and kevin came last night. now i am alone yet again. jay gets home tonight and my parents tomorrow. i open saturday, sunday, and monday. tuesday i'm off, then i work wednesday, thursday, and friday.
i hadn't written in my journal since monday, so that was something i really needed to do today. other than that, i've started re-reading the harry potter books so that i will be ready when book 6 (the half-blood prince) comes out on july 16th.

it has been thundering for a long time. it is pouring right now and the lightning has been amazing with powerful thunder that woke me up from my nap. i love the rain. i am glad i'm not at work though and i hope it doesn't do this tomorrow when i'm there. that would be very bad with the pine cooler starting tomorrow afternoon....eek.

brian and kevin are currently on the outskirts of salt lake city, ut on their way to elko, nv for the night. they are goofy, but are enjoying the road trip life even though this is only the second day of their twelve day journey. they are taping along the way and i will be interested to see the video when i go out there in a couple weeks. i am convinced they are going to come back emaciated by the crap food they are eating and will eat while this continues. they are forcing themselves to eat for less than $5 a meal (something that is nearly impossible unless it is small amounts of mcdonalds or some other form of unhealthy fast food). i am worried about that a lot, especially since they'll just be driving most of the time. there isn't much i can do to change it though. they'll be ok, but i am still worried.

i am really tired today. the last few weeks are catching up to me, as well as the drinking from this week. we are opening at the club at 5:45 nowadays, which means that i wake up sometime between 4:30 and 4:45 in order to shower, eat breakfast, and properly wake up before i have to leave.

i am lonely. this week was the first time i saw friends for more than just a couple hours. i had a blast, but i don't think it is something i will keep up at all. perhaps just a few times this summer. i am content in my solitude...most of the time. human drama is inevitable, and i think going back to the high school days subjects me to that drama more often than i would like. my life is currently revolving around work. i'll comment more on that later.

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