procrastination is key.

with a seemingly hellish week coming to an end (finally), i should be trying to get a head start on next week, which will be ten times worse than this week was. instead, i'm hacking worthless sites online and now posting on this blog, which has been all but abandoned in these past few weeks.

we leave tomorrow afternoon for oklahoma city. i am incredibly excited for it in so many ways, but i am also dreading it in many others. it will, without a doubt, be the biggest regatta we attend all season. i have one race saturday afternoon and one race sunday morning. we probably won't get back to omaha until late sunday night, so i will be fairly exhausted monday. tuesday i have a native american studies paper due. wednesday i have my big biology paper due. and on thursday i have a physics exam and my philosophy paper is due. i'm not looking forward to any of it, but at least in a week's time, i will all be over with. and then i'll be another week closer to being back at home.

i'm looking forward to going home, but i also know that it will be just as hard to leave again. regardless of the goodbyes, i cannot wait to spend a week with everyone. ben promised to golf with me...he'd better not bail on me. and hopefully, i'll get to drive up to ft. collins to see alyssa, or maybe she'll be able to come down on the weekend so we can hang out. it should be a good time. too bad ben won't give me any hours...i could always use the money.

and now it is time to do something productive...
next up on the list:
shower
pack
sleep

i shiver at night

so i look in your direction
but you pay me no attention, do you?
i know you don't listen to me
cause you say you see straight through me,
don't you?

but on and on,
from the moment i wake
to the moment i sleep,
i'll be there by your side,
just you try and stop me
i'll be waiting in line
just to see if you care

oh, did you want me to change?
well, i'd change for good
and i want you to know that you'll always get your way
and i wanted to say

don't you shiver
don't you shiver
i'll sing it loud and clear
and i'll always be waiting for you

so you know how much i need you
but you never even see me do you?
and is this my final chance of getting you?

but on and on,
from the moment i wake,
to the moment i sleep
i'll be there by your side
just you try and stop me
i'll be waiting in line
just to see if you care, if you care

did you want me to changge?
well, i'd change for good
and i want you to know that you'll always get your way
and i wanted to say

don't you shiver
don't you shiver
i'll sing it loud and clear
i'll always be waiting for you
yeah, i'll always be waiting for you
yeah, i'll always be waiting for you
yeah, i'll always be waiting for you
for you, i will always be waiting
and it's you i see
but you don't see me
and its you i hear
so loud and so clear
i sing it loud and clear
and i'll always be waiting for you

so i look in your direction,
but you pay me no attention
and you know how much i need you
but you never even see me

this the time

it seems as if tonight is a good night to make my first appearance here in over a month.

too much has happened to explain just in the last week, let alone the last month.

the summer ended alright with only minimal amounts of drama in the last few weeks of being home. i miss my pro shop boys immensely, but have already gone back home to see everyone. it was a quick three day trip, but it was worth it and i had a good time.

i have a pretty full load this semester with physics, biology, native american studies, world lit II, and ethics.

my daily activities consist of sleep, classes, crew, homework, and eating. there is very little time for much else.

first regatta of the season is next saturday in des moines. nerves are kicking in already, owing partially to me and partially to things people have been saying. it is my greatest desire to prove everyone wrong. we deserve to race even if we don't win any medals.

i have a lot of stress. the week has been incredibly busy.

i will try to keep up on this, if only as an outlet since i really don't have a person who can be that for me.

"this is the time to remember cause it will not last forever. these are the days to hold on to cause we won't although we'll want to. this is the time, but time is gonna change. you've given me the best of you, now i need the rest of you.