a few more hits

i got the last two grades finally. b+ in ethics and an a in world lit. i'm upset about the ethics grade, but oh well. should still be keeping myself out of the athletic learning center.

i need to get out of the house today because i'm getting quite upset being here, but i don't really have anywhere to go.

i'm tired of getting excited about coming home and seeing all my friends and then being horribly disappointed. i haven't talked to paul since i dropped him off at his house on monday night. mark never called me back on saturday night. i have yet to hear from christie. i'm realizing i care less and less about ben and lara. i haven't called linds yet...i'm not sure why. and katie doesn't get back until tomorrow night.

going snowboarding by myself yesterday was fun, but it was also a little bit depressing. almost as depressing as being home alone doing very little. the only surprise was a phone call from kate thanking me for her present and a facebook message from gina, whom i haven't talked to in quite a long time.

i guess it is all self-inflicted though. i could call any one of those people, but after coming to the realization that i am not always wanted around and that sometimes people are too nice to tell me that, i'm not in the mood to being a third wheel anymore. jay invited me to go to a christmas party with him and kim tonight, but i don't think i'll go. it feels a bit weird to go to a party with your brother, his girlfriend, and his friends who are all his age or older. it will probably just be another boring night around here.

i'm tired of waiting for people to figure out what they're missing. i need to talk to kara. perhaps i will give her a call later on today. we understand each other very well. too bad she's in montana.

i'm getting too depressed here. it might be time to finish it off, or begin a new one. we will see.