finally friday

i had intended to take a nap (again) since i am obviously not in latin right now, but that fell through again. the tidal wave of artma emails has begun. i will apparently have an "official" position this year, and perhaps the other "adult" volunteers won't be such bitches to me since i'm such a "kid." i remember at the last artma (2004) i almost punched this guy (another volunteer) because he was such a condescending prick to me because i'm short and don't look my age. as it turned out, what he was "correcting" me for was really right and he truly had no idea what was going on. i should be nicer since people are trying to help artma and all that, but the thing that upsets me is that most of these people never knew morgan and have no idea what she was like and then they try to act all smug because they're "doing a good deed," or something like that. i'm not doing it to do a good deed. i'm doing it for morgan. because it's what she would have done. artma season always brings out so many different feelings in me, in my whole family. especially joan. the sadness of having lost morgan. the stress from being expected to do so many things. the anger at people who are trying to do things their own way when we've being doing things just fine from the beginning before they ever showed up. the frustration at fellow members of the family who aren't helping as much as we think they should be. tempers flare. harsh words come flying out of our mouths. all because we've forgotten what we're really doing there. i wish i could be back in denver doing more than i have. i am just thankful i am able to go home for it. i'll have to keep going as long as i can.

anyway...

it's been a long week. it felt incredibly quick until it got to wednesday, then everything slowed down significantly. i've got two more classes today (theology and bio), then 3 hours of work, then weights. i plan on going to weights straight from work so i can get started lifting early and then get out of there by 5:30 or so. let's hope the locker room door doesn't break again (although, it was a sight to see 20 or so girls from different sports teams squished into the hallway waiting for the maintenance guy to unlock the door). i'm not sure what steph and i will do tonight, but i'm sure it will include sex and the city and a trip to the grocery store. perhaps we'll go out to dinner somewhere. i'm excited to watch some of the olympics this weekend and i know they will provide a great distraction throughout the next two weeks...eek.

tomorrow, we have a team meeting (for 2 and a half hours!) at 3 or so. should be interesting. i'm still working on trying to fit into the group, but it is tough since there seem to be so many different groups within the team.

homework for the weekend:
study for theology test (monday)
latin take home quiz, extra credit, and studying for in-class quiz (monday)
start studying for biology test (wednesday)
finish reading le morte d' arthur (tuesday)
physics lab, reading, quiz, etc.

it has been a long time since i've really talked to someone. i've sort of just been walking around in my own little world, disconnected from the universe, as i realized yesterday. i wonder if i've ever been really interconnected to the universe. i don't even know what that means anyway.

i miss talking to brian. perhaps he's been busy, or maybe things have changed for good now. i don't know. i hope they haven't. congratulations on mcgill. i'm sorry i didn't get to hear it from you.