ooh, a good night!

so, it was a fairly productive day today. i went to bed last night around 11 and woke up this morning around 9 or so (so much sleep...it was glorious!). i started doing work once i got up since erin and ashley were still in nebraska city and i had the room to myself (almost as amazing as 9 hours of sleep). at 11, i walked over to meet kara for breakfast. i had a decent breakfast and some interesting conversation, then i stole a bagel and came back here. i worked on biology notes until 1pm when i took an hour break to watch the end of the two towers and like 15 minutes of office space. after that, i finished my biology notes, did a little for bio lab, then worked on mastering physics. this was probably the very first time i've worked on mastering physics more than two days before its due!. i walked down to java jay to get some dinner to go and then came back up here and ate it while watching big - what a great movie. i had forgotten how good it was until i watched an hour of it tonight. and then i had to add it to my favorite movies list. i didn't get much done between that and soccer practice, but i'm not worried about it at all.

practice tonight was a lot of fun. we had 10 people show up at 7, so we played 5v5 on the court we had reserved. it was really good to get everyone playing together, even though it was just a little short-sided game on a small field. nate had to leave early and mo showed up, but couldn't play because she was doing a 5k. so after nate left, we played 4v4 with b-smith as a neutral player. i had a lot of fun, and that was the beginning of the good night.

i got back here right around 8, drank a lot of water because i forgot to take my nalgene to the kfc, and responded to some emails. i took a quick shower, and then the best news came to me right after i finished drying my hair. NO PRACTICE TOMORROW! i'm so glad we don't have to brave the cold and snow tomorrow...i really didn't think dan was going to cancel, so it was a huge shock for everyone. i didn't believe it at first. we have to do an hour of cardio, write it down, and bring it to weights, but that's no big deal. and at least i get to sleep in. that's going to be great.

i already took my sleepy-time medicine, so i'm not sure i'm going to be able to get much done before i pass out here pretty quick. i'm not too worried about that right now, but i may regret it when it comes time to study for all those tests i have this week (biology on wednesday, physics on thursday, theology on friday, and possibly a latin quiz wednesday or friday).

oh, and there is something that has been on my mind for the last few days. i wanted to think about it last night, but fell asleep before i could. this is going to be short and sweet (unless i really get going) since i can already feel my eyes drooping...

i am seriously distressed with the status quo. in the united states. in the world too...but mostly the US. the things i see and read about make me feel horrible inside. there are so many things, but i will only mention a few right now.

1. poverty. it is incredibly widespread and the gap between the haves and the have-nots continues to grow wider and wider. i feel guilty for being more privileged than most people out there. i also feel guilty because i do not do enough to help. i don't think the government is doing nearly enough to help the disadvantaged people of the united states. and i don't think the united states and the rest of the 1st world countries are doing jack shit to help the rest of the world. i'll have to elaborate on that more another time though because there are many more things to say about that.

2. habitat destruction. i read an essay yesterday about the effects of human beings on the planet being akin to a mass extinction event. mass extinction event = at least 60% of present species going extinct withing 100 million years. we're on our way there if things don't start to change quickly, and i don't see that happening. we humans are incredibly apathetic. as a whole, we have no care for our planet and the other living things that we share it with. someone is going to have to step up and make a change. but we're all going to have to change. the whole planet. every single person. someone has to set a good example. who will it be? large corporations? the government? small grassroots organizations are trying, but they are just too small and they are deemed as those CRAZY RADICAL LIBERALS. sure. there's more to say about this one too...

3. war. i hate that humans have historically been warmongers. how many people have to die before we finally fucking figure it out?

i'm tired and my heart hurts, so i'm going to stop now. but i will never stop thinking about it. for the last few days, i've just kept wishing that i wasn't human so that i wouldn't have to come to grips with the fact that i'm part of all the destruction. i've got to find a way to make things different. we all do.