it feels like friday

but it isn't. damn. despite that, i don't feel like starting any homework just yet, so i decided to bring things up to speed here.

i just got back from our playoff IM soccer game. it was a disappointing end to a sad season. we lost 3-2 to a not very good team that only had two good guys who were total asses and just loved going after me and mo. but hey, it's cool for huge guys to go after the 5 foot 2, 120 pound girls. oh well. we'll do better next season, i'm sure.

today has been pretty busy. practice was not very good for various reasons. we're really going to have to go out there and work hard tomorrow and friday before the race on saturday. i ran to breakfast and didn't eat very much because i didn't feel so good (probably a combination of actually not feeling well and being upset about practice). i fell asleep in physics, which was definitely not good because i do not understand this light through the slits stuff, so i'll have to go talk to dr. duda about it soon. i also fell asleep for a minute or two in latin (first time that's happened)...i really need to get my act together for the last two weeks of that class. i'm praying so hard for a take-home final. i think i did alright on my theology test, but i should have studied more. it pisses me off that i sacrificed some studying time to work on the introduction and outline for my paper, and she didn't even do anything with them today like she said she was going to! argh. oh well...we get to drop one, so we'll see what happens. i didn't get a lot of studying done during bio, but it worked out because i only went in to work for about half an hour and then came back here to study (and take a half hour nap). i don't really want to say anything about the bio test until i know for sure how it went. it could go either way, so i'll just wait until i go look at the key tomorrow.

i'm glad tomorrow is thursday. i'm ready for this week to be over with. i'm ready for next week and finals week to be over with too. i also don't want to have to do any of the work i have left. i've been procrastinating on my english lit project for a long time and it is starting to scare me a little bit. i also need to get the theology paper done with, hopefully on friday night...sometime this weekend at least.

i miss colorado more than i can say. thinking about home makes me incredibly depressed. i'm on to my next countdown until i'm home again...81 and a half days. and that's still sort of an estimate because i don't know when jay and i will get back from boston (dave concert at fenway...woo!). my guess is it will be around july 10th or so. the only good thing about that is that i will be back just in time for pinedaze...the best possible week of work - the same guys playing every day, big tips, lots of booze, lots of golf, and lots of partying. i can't wait. i'm sad that the only time i got to hang out with ben and paulie while i was home was when i was working with them at pinehurst. i guess that will just make seeing them in july all the better. i am so excited to go home and i hate everyone who will be back there in three weeks. i can't even guess how upset i will be if i do all this work and make myself miserable for all this time and i don't even get into med school. i guess i just have to stay positive about it. and work hard so it doesn't happen. what a shitty situation. working for something that may never even happen. and then what? continue to be miserable. ugh. anyway....

i'm pretty sure i have pinkeye now that i've had this same thing for over a week now and it hasn't been getting any better. i'll just have to try to make it into the training room to talk to joey sometime tomorrow.

and now it's time to take a shower, do some homework, and go to sleep.

what a day.

i miss you guys so much.